MAYhem

quick post!

a loooot of things to do this may! :O

Today, we moved to another condo. Had to start over with fixing and transferring my things. No cable and internet connection but I stole Kam’s smart bro stick haha. Still smells like fresh paint around, asthma kicking in again!

As for my internship, I’m a little worried because our program will end on May 25 and we still have a lot of things to do! :O I was assigned, together with Kams, on the Youth Leadership and Social Entrepreneurship aspect of the program under ASoG. Our task is to help Ate Mai revise the old module that they had been using to teach social entrepreneurship to college students and student leaders in various universities/colleges. It’s a little hard because we have to learn and research about social entrepreneurship and, personally, I have no background about it. I initially thought that all it takes is for a person to be passionate and to have a heart in helping. Hindi pala pwede na mabait ka lang haha. Social entrepreneurship is really complicated and more challenging since your goal is to not only meet those target sales and ROI but to also make sure that your venture creates positive social and environmental impact. Whew! In the SeaOil aspect of our internship, I am part of the team that has to design a needs assessment tool and an impact assessment tool of a social entrepreneurship venture or initiative of SeaOil in their community in Brgy. Namayan in Mandaluyong City. And to test these tools, we were also sort of expected (though not really required, thank God!) to create a simple social venture on the community. So, last Wednesday we went to their depot there and climbed the top of their biggest tank haha! Too bad I wasn’t able to take more pictures since cellphones and other electronic gadgets are not allowed in the insides of the depot area.

As for ORSEM, according to the countdown in the http://orsem2012.com/ website, we only have 32 days before ORSEM! Still a lot moooooooore things to do and to finish! As of the moment, I’m having an anxiety attack haha oh well, but I know we can do it! I just can’t imagine the coming days when I have to joggle ORSEM work together with internship, YFC Evange planning, YFC plansem, Works of Heart tasks… I feel bad sometimes because I couldn’t give anymore my best to some of those responsibilities because I really couldn’t handle this much workload anymore huhuhu </////3 Oh well, at least this busy-ness diverts my attention from a lot of depressing teenage (oo feeling teenager ako bwahaha) personal stuff I’m currently undergoing haha :O Soooo, this week, we had our photo shoot. Grabbed these photos from DNP :p

Me and Nick (SEC Deputy)

cliquish JTA people

boss Daryl and Zac haha

ORCOM girls

Chinese ORCOM <3

Me and Timmy )

I was geting emotional during the entire thing because it was not so long ago that orcom 2011 had our shoot last year. Ang bilis ng oras huhuhu I miss those crazy people! Photo grabbed from Bianca haha! uy andito pa IESEG jacket mo sakin hahaha

ORCOM 2011 :”>

Anyway! Aside from the tons of tasks I have to finish this May, I have a lot of things to look forward to! On May 26, I will be giving my first ever talk in a YFC youth camp hehe. I haven’t done my outline though :O But, I can’t help but be excited despite my lack of time to start preparing for it. I know God will help me find a way :> And also, still on May 26 but in the evening, Colene and I will also be watching the concert of my favoritest favoritest favoritest band in the entire universe, Lifehouse

Hayyyyyyyy.. It’s gonna be a very very very long MAYhem month for me!!!!!!!! :/

My First Day

I am now having my summer internship with the Ateneo School of Government and SEAOIL. There are five us – me, Kams, Ina, Jim and Eldridge – composing the pioneer batch of this Leadership Summer Internship Program which started today and will end on May 25. Though it’s a partnership with SEAOIL, we will be mostly reporting in the main office of ASoG which is just inside, (surprise!), Ateneo

The road I chose may not be something that’s typically chosen (or so I thought) by a Management Engineering Major like me (though I’m also with another ME student, Eldridge). I say this since my other batch mates are having their OJT in big and high-paying corporations or multi-national companies (yes, my internship has no pay). Personally, those were the kind of internships I aspired for in the beginning of this hullabaloo of OJT searching. However, I was not lucky enough to land on those kind of internships because of some circumstances like the offer wasn’t exactly what I wanted (at the beginning, I had the nerve to be choosy, haha), some, after having interviews (case in point, P&G) rejected my face. I have nothing against these companies. I accept the fact that this is how the game works. Now, how did I end up here?

Being so busy with my JTA sem, I wasn’t really able to focus in my OJT search. I’m not giving an excuse but I guess everything just happend for a reason – that everything made sense, most especially the rejection, because I eventually ended up here. If I were given an offer, especially at the latter part of the search, for sure I would accept it out of my desperate need for an OJT just to comply with this course requirement. It was a matter of coincidence that the applications for ASoG’s internship started late. By the first week of April while everyone had their internships, I had nothing and had not even done my interviews for ASoG. During holy week, with my short break from my hell weeks, I thought of sending my resume and letter of intent to a new wave of companies. But then as I researched about ASoG’s and SEAOIL’s leadership and internship program and thought hard about it, something inside me got really excited (I thought of it as something like ASLA) and so I decided not to apply and not to go after an internship in a corporate setting. So, in the end, it was ASoG or nothing for me. Luckily for me, I got accepted!

What I realized in this whole experience (of looking for an internship) is the things that you have initially planned for yourself may not be what God has planned for you. I can say that this was all God’s plan to bring me in this side of the road. I could not be more excited right now since I really think I can learn a lot from this experience. Just today, we met Mr. Mark Yu, CFO of SEAOIL. He is a remarkable man who has a heart and passion for volunteerism. Earlier, he gave us an im promtu lecture on social entrepreneurship and CSR and I can’t help but see and be inspired of how driven and happy he is in his work.

Currently, I may not have the same drive Mr. Yu has but I know that there’s a little something in me that finds happiness and fulfillment in service and volunteerism. I have gradually realized this in my experiences as a student in Ateneo. But even before, in my elementary and high school days, I sincerely enjoyed leading and serving my fellow students. Right now, I can safely say that I am not as passionate as other people like Mr. Yu and the people in ASoG, but I really really really hope I come out from this experience with a greater heart and passion for service and social change.

None But Jesus

What I’ve been up to this Holy Week aside from studying and finishing projects for the last week of JTA sem Getting my strength and inspiration to finish the last stretch of the hardest semester I ever had from the infinite love of Jesus. None but Jesus ♥

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos in confusion
I know You’re sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forever more

Lead Me To The Cross

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
The word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risen

Lead me to your heart

song originally by Hillsong United

Together Again ♥

After 4-ish months of being away from each other!!! Can’t help it – that I was teary-eyed when I saw my mama about to cry in the airport where I fetched her hihihi! :> Cute namin noh?!

HBD to me!

On this day last year, I was, as usual, cramming on the last few weeks of my hell of a semester in Ateneo. Seems like it was just yesterday – and now I’m a year older and halfway around the world. It’s funny how a year ago, aside from thinking about passing my accounting subject and staying in my program, all that I was stressing and fussing about was my 18th birthday party. Now all that I am thinking about is that my dorm’s washing machine is out of order and I have a growing pile of dirty clothes stocked in my dorm

Some pictures from my party last year, just because…

I really can’t imagine that these photos were taken almost a year ago. It was one of the best moments in my life. And here I am now, thousands of miles away from home learning, experiencing and creating more moments that I’m pretty sure I’ll look back to one, two or a few years from now And when I do, it’ll always remind me of how much I am given way more blessings I could ask for.

P.S. thank you to everyone who took the time to greet me. bises :> haha!

Rant # 523679

This is so frustrating. My internet kinda sucks, uh wait no, it sucks. I was skyping with my mom and got really frustrated because even though I already turned off my video, still we weren’t able to understand each other. So, I told her I’m gonna call her phone using my french sim which still has around 12 euros of credit. After 3 minutes of clear conversation, I ran out of credit. /wrist